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I remember taking an online quiz about narcissism. It was a serious one, not one of those silly quizzes with results that tell you nothing about yourself.
The quiz that I took involved lots of question, none of which I remember– and then a nifty summation about your personality at the end. The scale of the results of the quiz went from 1 to 30. One was someone like a cloistered nun, and thirty was someone like a movie star or national politician. Most people in the USA scored around 20.
I got a 6. That was about as low as a person who was not part of a conservative religious community could get.
At the time I was concerned that I scored so low, but had to admit that I’m just kind of who I am— which would not be the mind-set of a person who is suffering from extreme narcissism.
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I’d forgotten all about that quiz until last night when I was thinking about what I’ve learned from this NaBloPoMo project. I agree that I am a bit more disciplined in my writing now. But I’ve earned a B.A. in English Lit & a M.A. in Communication so I’ve already proved to myself and to the world that I can do that when need be. And I agree that I’ve found new ways to discover other bloggers. But searching for other people online is not really a calling for me.
In reality, I think what I’ve learned is that for me the stress of this project has been trying to convince myself that I want to focus on me every day. And considering my innate personality type, this is no surprise.
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I’ve continued through to the end of the month and I’ve done my best. It’s good to challenge yourself once in a while. But I can say that I now completely understand why Deb on the Rocks referred to this as “glorious madness.” Because it is.
Thanks for keeping up with me, gentle readers. I appreciate your attention & your comments & your suggestions about what I should write about next. It has helped me more than you can imagine.
But as of today I shall return to being the casual blogger who posts when I have something to say— whenever I feel like it– when I’m in the mood.
You know, like the free spirit that I am.
Later, kids!